Oh, his younger self has won already. That last comment is absolutely true: now that the subject has been broached, Miles won't be able to stop thinking about it. He'll worry at it like a dog with a chew toy until he finally gives in, and then ... He's still stranded in the Occupation. This is still going to hurt a lot.

"Not fair," he says with one last burst of petulance. "You had a whole ship to figure yourself out with. And Bel." God, he would kill to have Bel here to help him work through this right now.