[ It shudders through her, like turning on a light. The first time she had seen a gas light, lighting up a room brightly. Different to the candles and oil burners she had grown up with, in the mahal. A sudden illumination when the price of years is the deadening. Is dark rooms where people had lived and then the lights had been turned out. Gone. Left her in corridors to walk with nothing but her own steps to echo back to her.
The same kind of longing she tastes in his mouth. Far be it for her to admit loneliness, she was a Queen after all. She had no place to wallow, she must only act in the memories of those that she laid to rest in those chambers. But it creeps up on her regardless, as she leans into him, and the angle is off, but adjusting it means pulling away for even more than a breath she is loath to take. Burying something or dragging it up, and either way, there's dirt under her nails.
Drags that dirt stained longing down his arms as she shifts her hands to move across him, and it takes an age to figure out the words she wants that isn't just a shuddering little noise that lives and dies in her throat as he says her name. Lakshmi, she means to tell him, Manu, after that. Him and her and nothing else. Thank god they are somewhere that they won't be bothered. Manages it finally, ] Admiral. [ Her voice is guttural low, the title panted out, and it's bright and sharp and she feels herself all over-heated and thundering. ] Fix this to be comfortable to both of us or I will do it for you.
[ Not a rejection, oh no, not at all that. Just a demand and a want. ]
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The same kind of longing she tastes in his mouth. Far be it for her to admit loneliness, she was a Queen after all. She had no place to wallow, she must only act in the memories of those that she laid to rest in those chambers. But it creeps up on her regardless, as she leans into him, and the angle is off, but adjusting it means pulling away for even more than a breath she is loath to take. Burying something or dragging it up, and either way, there's dirt under her nails.
Drags that dirt stained longing down his arms as she shifts her hands to move across him, and it takes an age to figure out the words she wants that isn't just a shuddering little noise that lives and dies in her throat as he says her name. Lakshmi, she means to tell him, Manu, after that. Him and her and nothing else. Thank god they are somewhere that they won't be bothered. Manages it finally, ] Admiral. [ Her voice is guttural low, the title panted out, and it's bright and sharp and she feels herself all over-heated and thundering. ] Fix this to be comfortable to both of us or I will do it for you.
[ Not a rejection, oh no, not at all that. Just a demand and a want. ]